July 28, 2013 Facebook post
Had the privilege of preaching on 1 Timothy 2:8-15 today….women must remain silent:-) Title was “Keep It in Context.” How I love being an ordained minister of The Salvation Army!
Check it out. I am just an ordinary woman, and God is allowing me to preach His word. The infamous verse about women remaining silent. Used by many a man as a weapon to silence the women in their lives.
This was my pericope throughout training school. Ironically taught by an oppressive character. Nothing is lost on God. He is always teaching.
Confession time. This scripture passage resonated with me because it was me. I loved the limelight. And for all the wrong reasons. Then this depression hit. And I wanted nothing to do with being in front of people. I would purposefully place everyone else on the church bulletin, so as to avoid having to be in front. I was petrified.
God has humbled the holy living heck out of me. I am unsure of myself in this world of helping others all the time. So I have to rely on God that much more.
As I stumble into middle age, I find myself not so concerned with my looks. I still clean up and present well, but I am less absorbed with compulsive fitness regimens. I mean to what end? My husband adores me. I walk nearly every day at least three miles. I eat when hungry. And am learning to stop when full. I am keeping my food down. My body is finding its equilibrium and place of normalcy. Apparently normal is gaining weight specifically in the tummy area. In addition to all this, I had my first two hot flashes at age 43. One thing aging does. It humbles you.
And then God asks me to reach down deeper. I am more than what I do. I am more than what I look like. I am a beloved daughter of The King. Yeah, yeah…what does that mean though? It means I am worth something simply because I exist.