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Month: February 2021

Chronic

Chronic

Living with chronic pain. In a word, exhausting. As each hour progresses, energy diminishes. For work. Laughter. And play. Its looming presence relentlessly induces pressure. No relief.

I cannot walk without electricity. How I miss walking. Listening to music. Praying to Abba. Catching up with sisters. Rather than pray, I concentrate on the physicality of the pain. What I can no longer do. Everything I am missing out on.

Lord God in heaven. Thank you for revealing your will. May I suffer for Christ. For His glory. In other words, make me more like Jesus. Through my suffering. With empathy for my husband. And gratitude for all that God has blessed us with.

I am alive. I am in love. I have all of my faculties. I am beloved. I am saved. Hopeful that resolution will be realized. Confident in the Christ who can do all things.

Poetic Pain

Poetic Pain

Two weeks
Abandoned
Orphanage footsteps
Unwanted

17 years old
Disowned
Adoptive family
Unloved

25 years married
Dropped by in-laws
Racism
Bigotry

Only son
Only grandchild
Dismissed
Discarded

Speaking truth
In love
Not accepted
Rejected

Hate
Judgement
No legacy
Deep wounds

Forgiveness
Rather be right
Than reconcile
Alone

Where’s God
He’s central
Reunited
In heaven

Or will we
Many will call out
He will say
He does not know us

Reality
Loss
Hurt
Anger

Silent
Sorrow
Ardent
Ache